Exhausted ...

Hey all...it is a shame I have not been able to write on here or even visit for quite some time. I really enjoy writing and I need to do it. Things have been pretty rough for a while. We have had a lot of problems getting Skyler stabilized and are still struggling. He was not able to make it through to last day of school. He hit the principal while she was trying to keep him safe (He was trying to hit some glass cases at the school while angry) and he was not able to complete the last two days of the school year. The good thing is that just prior to this happening we did get him approved for level 3 schooling for next year. He will be going to a school with people who specialize in kids with mental health and behavior disorders. It will allow him to continue to learn and keep up better with academics while still addressing his physical/mental/emotional/medication needs. We have been struggling with his behaviors in the meantime at home. He has for some reason become very physically aggressive towards me. It is hard for my husband to leave him alone with me because his rages are so difficult to manage. It is absolute torture to see my child go through this. One minute he is all smiles and the next he is in a red faced rage. He has punched holes in our walls, knocking out the dry wall. He most recently punched me in the stomach and threw things at me over having to come inside from playing. He will be in screaming, kicking, and trying to bite one minute and the next he might be sobbing hysterically. He has even shown some extreme manic behaviors and swings of depression. No human being should have to go through this...most certainly not a 7 year old little boy. These are the times where my faith is tested...but I know that He has plans for my little guy and there is a reason for everything He does. I have to believe that that reason will show itself some day soon and provide us all with some comfort. If anyone is out there who knows what we are going through...may God give you strength to get through this too. I keep telling myself..."That which does not kill us makes us stronger" and I really believe that...and, "This too shall pass"....If the saying that "God only gives us as much as we can handle" is true, then He has a lot more faith in me than I do!! Well, better get my butt into bed....plan to write more tomorrow (I hope). Good to be able to "talk" to y'all.
Sweet dreams of angelic children without problems....